In-depth Reading of a Question

#1

During the reading, it was clear that you have a very strong heart chakra, fully open and activated. However, your abundance is blocked because you don’t believe you deserved it. You lack true belief that the skills that you have or is about to learn would provide legitimate value in the world. You have a firm belief that in order to receive any money in a “clean” way, it needed to be earned through certain parameters that decides “if it’s justified to earn X amount thanks to X service/product.” This is clearly a limited belief programming, which has existed since your childhood, and is responsible for your view of “how money is supposed to circulate in the world.” This is the main issue blocking your abundance right now.

Since your heart chakra is so strong, it means that once the mind is aligned with the heart on that subject, abundance will be fully unlocked, in a very straightforward and easy way. You can sense on an energetic level how reality operates, yet feels shame in using this to your advantage. In fact, your are suppressing a lot of what you can do for the purpose of respecting some programmed “belief/opinion” you had prior, and it’s simply time to let go of this.

For the sake of simplicity, it’s good to understand that are infinite ways to earn money. Those who only care about earning it in the “easiest” way risk not finding true fulfillment in that money because they do not enjoy the work; they only do it for the money. Some people would rather do physical labor their whole life and earn that way, while others cannot imagine lifting anything heavier than a cup of coffee in the morning. It is just a matter of perspective and it’s time for you to become brave enough to pay attention to your own perspective.

As a hint, the answer lies in awakening and healing the repressed inner child. Once this is done, reality will start throwing synchronicities at you, guiding your actions until eventually, you reach abundance without even noticing the path you’re waking in, so natural it was.

#2

Your Higher Self (HS) is trying to teach you a lesson to be more open-minded and to give greater importance to mundane topics. You need to learn to give importance to that which people feel the need to express, even if it does not provide learning, or knowledge value. You are placing too much emphasis on information exchange to be useful, objectively speaking.

In groups, you feel the most useless, because you have witnessed that in groups, truly no knowledge is shared. However, you need to respect the need of people to share their vibes, express their own personalities, without necessarily providing brain-stimulating value. You need to learn to approach people like a scientist, becoming involved in their personal stories, for example, and train yourself to be able to read people’s souls in this way. In doing so, you will come to the conclusion that no matter the person’s status, or if they have a good job, a lot of friends or not, or whatever, at the end of the day, you need to learn to appreciate our human characteristic of wanting to be heard. Looking at it from this perspective will open up the HS-imposed limitations, but it will also help to dissolve your own. Eventually, you will manifest these social interactions and people that will truly catch your attention and captivate you.

Hint: Joining the library more, and learning to be extroverted there, feels like a really good approach, as it will train you to feel the flow of your current surroundings and practice intuition. You will just know the right person to talk to, or even if you fail, you will learn to have more fun conversations, simply because initiating the conversation gives you also the chance to lead it in any direction you want and you feel the person is able to keep up.

This is an important skill to learn, because on your path it will be important for you to be a social chameleon that is not just a borderline psycho who adapts, but is able to drive the conversation in any direction, and even help less evolved people start thinking along more intellectual and expansive lines. This has a big domino effect. Social chameleons are easily detected and hated because they are seen as having no personality. But by learning to express focused curiosity, coupled with some humor, you will be leagues above and prove to yourself, most importantly, that you really can be a social skills master that is also genuine, and not just doing it to get integrated for a personal gain or agenda.

#3

It may seem strange to read, but regardless of what the medical diagnosis may indicate, most of the mental condition you’re asking about is actually “entrained.” You have unconsciously “taught” yourself to believe that you’re “doomed” to act or react in certain ways to your environment, and events. The condition appears to be closely aligned with “compulsive” behavior; something triggers you to act in a certain way and you feel as if you cannot fight it, and must simply “execute the instructions.”

To overcome this, it’s important to learn how to stay completely calm, relaxed, and detached. So the first suggestion here is to start meditating and observe your own mind, and inner voice. Observe these patterns without judgment, do not force them to stop. Instead, aim to guide their flow, almost like switching railway tracks so that the train goes in a different direction. One may not be able to prevent the start of the behavior, but one can passively observe it, mindfully sense how each part of oneself behaves, then guide the “compulsive” behavior to end slightly differently than before. Intend this, see it fail, then repeat and be mindful, as for each breakthrough doesn’t need to be flashy. Usually the subtlest ones teach us the most.

The main narrative is that most of mental energy seemingly goes into the execution of “mentally inefficient behavior.” Each of these “conditions” should be treated with the method described above, and guided to end in at least slightly different way. The more this is entrained, the bigger the “sea” of alternative path endings is, but also alternative path itself.

As for how to find mental strength to fight this instead of giving up, you’re well aware of what matters to you and what you’re are “fighting” for. This is very good and you should use it in your favor. The issue here is just that you’re only partially consciously of all of these. If you were to contemplate for a while, mainly in meditation or in nature, you would find that you actually care a lot more about everything than you’re able to admit openly, right now. And this could trigger a path where you have more energy and inner fire to fight the triggers that are haunting you.